Freaking tired with u

I know im not a good son. But at least i know, after form5, after i screwed up EVERYTHING, i prove myself, i changed, i've become better.

I did not expect you to give me anything / say good things to me which u never did. I just hope that u dont give me that kind of face, im your eldest son, u say i din give u money, the 1st RM2000 i earn this month, i give who? i give it to u, ALL... I din keep a single cent for myself. I go genting also i spend my own money, i tried not to ask from u.

What you did just now?
Is it always about you?
This house is dis small, and i din even own a fucking room, the only place i can get online is the dining hall, and yet, u want me to get in the shit hole where the little brother is sleeping, i cant make a single noise or he will wake up.

PLEASE, be considerate, im a 21 year old adult guy, im not 12 year old, i need my own space, u cant give me, FINE, i create my own space, even that u want to take the private space frm me. WTH U WANT?

I deserve respect from every single one of u, I believe i tried harder than u in becoming a better son.

I know i did badly in primary, secondary. BUT COME ON, I manage to becoming the chairman of the youth society in ur temple where i made u proud, WHY IN HELL EVERYBODY THERE SALUTE HOW I ORGANIZE THINGs, BUT ITS JUST NOT YOU?

Fine, Studies... If u said that i did badly previously, FINE. But now i did a good job in almost everything, at least i can TEACH my classmates ( eventhough its not correct )

I tried my best to speak in english as all of u can see how much i've improved. IF still not happy, WAD I CAN SAY, NTH.

U tell me, i used to merajuk and throwing stuff at u or sis, i know and i changed, i never did that again. But do u even realise i learn that from u?

U had jz make the whole hse like a mess after ur BLABLABLA throwing things around at the middle of the night.

* im jz writing to merajuk.

Rise of the fallen

Fallen, once i had.
Rise, now i am.

Immature, naif, arrogant i was.
Changed, wise, pretend to be not arrogant i am now.

*U need to wake up, your way of doing things are getting urself into trouble if u dont believe me.
( To a friend of mine )

*Do it pls i wan laugh at u

Great Feeling

Thx to someone who wake me up lol.

Its you, not me. Wake up.
Everyone feels dat way. Jz u havent.

Worse Day of the month

No.1

Advertising Assignment.
Due to some reason, my part of the presentation is changed wifout earlier notice which resulting me got NOTHING to present during presentation and cause our lecturer to become suspicious about what i did in this assignment.

Not positive, mostlikely i'll fail cuz of this shit.

No.2 : 6.55pm stuff

Sis pang ork at 6.55 but mom call me at 6.45 to pick her up. Drove lik crazy as u all know the situation of Penang, then there's a bitch in d middle of d road, high way, most right lane which means u gotto drove fast, drove slow lik fucking cibai, i overtake her, before i overtake her, that bitch lap ewwww and i siam her and drifted at jelutong highway at d speed of 80km/j ~100km/j.
Haaar kau limpek pua si... Sipek tulan...


No.3 : RWC trainning
RWC ragnarok worldchampionship, i am here for a practise with the guildmates, 1 of my best game but i did not win. WTF... lidat how to win champion i wonder.

SIEN LA TODAY, SUCKIEST DAY OF THE MONTH

What i want?

The thing we wanted,
Its usually not the thing we should aimed for.

The thing we needed,
Its usually the thing we hate to aim for.

What i want?
I dont know.

To be more clear, I know what i want, and i know what i should aim.

But what i want is not what i should aim for.
Decision is made, I aim for the things i needed, not the things i wanted.

But its not easy.
sigh

You and Me.

You, Are 1 of the best leader
You, Are 1 of the strongest teens
You, Are always proud of urself
You, Are a guy who tried to control in everything. U really did.

Me, A great leader in Msps
Me, Proud of my own achievement
Me, Never Let go whatever I wants until I get an answer
Me, Independent, surviving, Tried my best to prove myself. I really Did.

Who am i?
K`z~, The one.

"Random and write to seok sendiri saja" =x

Genting.

We played ALL THE RIDES in Genting until almost puke ( me only ) Cause i cant tahan the dizzyness actually.

I asked : why do i even get up to this thing when play spaceshot.. HAHA...

Im not perfect.

I am sorry that im not perfect.
I am just me, just Kuang Ze.
I am sorry that i cant be the one u want me to be.
Like how u expect me to behave, Its not as easy as it looks.

I'd try everything to make u happy,
Even if it upset me. As long as it gets u happy.
I've tried not to make u feel sad.
Like what is happen now. Its alot harder than it looks.

Sometimes I get so angry
I don't know what to say
I feel just like a game
That everyone wants to play

Sometimes I get so confused
I don't know what u think
I feel just like a tool
That you don’t really care

The only thing I need
Is someone who is true
The only thing I need now,

Is to feel the thing I felt in you.

Prove me right.

Regret

Afraid of regret
I take a breath and try to deal with the battle that is set
My heart tares me one way
In opposing corners my best friend and my mind
No move can I make that solves this problem
So strong the will in my heart- it will not let me move
In this place I am put
Onwards I charge in the presence of my peers
Pressing to each occasion
With a stiff smile forced upon my somber face
Eventually I shut down in my room
Alone-as I’m used to it
With a tear formed in the crevice of my eye
Making its way down my cheek
Knowing I don’t belong here
I need someone to love me,
But alone I am left
Alone I forever will be
Afraid of regret.

Gym Day

Tried to work out to get a 6 packs but kind of impossible. well jz pray it works =D

Presentation !

Well today jz had our 1st presentation for 2ndsemester in KDU, well invited some of the degree students n boom us with questions. lucky tht our group manage answer all of it.
Sry to my group mate tht i din do anything in d slides lol... Thanks for putting my name in it =x