Freaking tired with u

I know im not a good son. But at least i know, after form5, after i screwed up EVERYTHING, i prove myself, i changed, i've become better.

I did not expect you to give me anything / say good things to me which u never did. I just hope that u dont give me that kind of face, im your eldest son, u say i din give u money, the 1st RM2000 i earn this month, i give who? i give it to u, ALL... I din keep a single cent for myself. I go genting also i spend my own money, i tried not to ask from u.

What you did just now?
Is it always about you?
This house is dis small, and i din even own a fucking room, the only place i can get online is the dining hall, and yet, u want me to get in the shit hole where the little brother is sleeping, i cant make a single noise or he will wake up.

PLEASE, be considerate, im a 21 year old adult guy, im not 12 year old, i need my own space, u cant give me, FINE, i create my own space, even that u want to take the private space frm me. WTH U WANT?

I deserve respect from every single one of u, I believe i tried harder than u in becoming a better son.

I know i did badly in primary, secondary. BUT COME ON, I manage to becoming the chairman of the youth society in ur temple where i made u proud, WHY IN HELL EVERYBODY THERE SALUTE HOW I ORGANIZE THINGs, BUT ITS JUST NOT YOU?

Fine, Studies... If u said that i did badly previously, FINE. But now i did a good job in almost everything, at least i can TEACH my classmates ( eventhough its not correct )

I tried my best to speak in english as all of u can see how much i've improved. IF still not happy, WAD I CAN SAY, NTH.

U tell me, i used to merajuk and throwing stuff at u or sis, i know and i changed, i never did that again. But do u even realise i learn that from u?

U had jz make the whole hse like a mess after ur BLABLABLA throwing things around at the middle of the night.

* im jz writing to merajuk.